As I said, I didn’t mean to kill her.
I didn’t know her, there was no malice, I was only defending myself.
Okay, maybe I did defend myself more than I should have, but it wasn’t meant to happen.
She kept hitting me for fucks sake. What was I meant to do?
As I told the other officer, we had only met that night although we had been chatting on the phone for a few weeks.
No sex wasn’t mentioned, not on the phone and it wasn’t even mentioned in the pub, but to be fair, there was some implicit undertones when I asked her if she wanted to come back to mine.
Yes I was surprised when she said yes. Quite taken aback to be honest. We’d had a few kisses and then a bit of a snog, but I didn’t think she’d come back to mine never mind spend the night. Continue reading “Wolf – Consent?”
I didn’t mean to kill her.
Honestly I didn’t mean it at the time and I didn’t have any plans to do so before we met or at any point over our short time together.
I had only met Katy that night for heavens sake. I barely knew her, why would I want to kill her?
Yes I wanted to fuck her, she’s an attractive woman. But this was a first date. I didn’t even have sex on my mind never mind murder.
We had been speaking for ages before we met. Getting to know each other.
Chatting on the phone most nights until we fell asleep. Chatting most mornings while she lay in bed and I was on my commute.
I think that was over a period of about three weeks since our first online hello on match.com to our first date
No there wasn’t any sex talk. I’m not like that. I think if you’re looking for a relationship rather than a fuck then sex talk is inappropriate before you meet.
Not that I’m against it. I like sex talk and mutual masturbation while you can’t be together.
But most decent women would probably be offended and run a mile if you asked them if they liked it up the ass before you’d even bought them dinner.
Why did it take so long to meet? Continue reading “Wolf – Unintentional?”
Q – So why did you and the band split up Robbie?
A – Well .. I don’t know … musical differences I guess.
He was hardly going to say that he’s a bit of an arrogant selfish prick, tired of playing second fiddle to the more talented Gary and wanting more attention.
You could swap those names for Liam / Noel or even John / Paul.
But is it arrogant or selfish to want to move on to different things, to leave the old behind and try a new challenge?
If you’ve ever felt bored or unappreciated in a job or a relationship and wanted to move on because what you have isn’t working and you feel that you’d be more appreciated elsewhere, does that make you a bad person?
Of course it doesn’t.
The problem occurs because when you leave people behind they can feel hurt or let down in whatever context you’ve split.
How many times have you seen friends or family in a relationship that’s broken or stale and it goes on like that for a while because they care about what they had and have a lot of time invested in each other. But eventually something has to give.
Continue reading “Musical Differences? … Change and Resentment.”
I love being single
Full-stop, next sentence.
There’s no need to add any reasons … as in .. I love being single because ..
Nope, I just love being single.
I guess if you’re asking me for reasons it’s mainly because of the freedom that comes with living alone and being able to do anything I want when I want.
Continue reading “Wolf – 10 – Service Provider?”
So you’ve read the last chapter and my advice about killing someone and how it’s most likely that you will be caught.
The cops aren’t dummies you know.
You’re average plod might be, but the investigating officers will be highly trained and experienced and they will have seen your like many times before.
They will gather evidence against you, interview you, let you go then rearrest you. They will play you, lead you on and manipulate you in any way to get a confession.
It’s not personal, it’s a process. They will follow their operational procedures when necessary but will use any means necessary to get the result they want.
They have specialists and a huge amount of resources to ensure that you are caught and imprisoned for the rest of your sad sorry life.
It’s hard to beat the system and let’s be honest, you’re not that smart.
And you still want to do it?
You must’ve been seriously wronged or you have one twisted mindset mister / sister.
I’ve been there, a long time ago, someone wronged me badly in a personal attack. They also stole a significant amount of money from me and naturally I wanted instant and gratuitous vengeance. Continue reading “Wolf – 9 – Patience”
She’d had enough of my shit.
I get that, the only irony being that I’d had enough of my shit too.
I’d been a bad boy, hands up, I confess to all my sins .. now can we get back to our normal life? Please? Continue reading “Wolf – 7 – Games”
I’m fucking her now, ten minutes ago we had arrived at mine, kissing lustily even before the front door closed.
My hands were all over her, sliding across the satin silkiness of her dress.
She wasn’t complaining. Continue reading “Wolf – 6 – Sliding”