It’s the half night
The half light
I’m wide awake
When I should be sound
She’s been texting
Her anxiety increasing
With my lack of response
But I was asleep to be fair
She wants me
She misses me
She wants me to fuck her
To do anything I want
Do I miss her?
Do I not love her?
Why don’t I love her?
All that angst and anxiety
While I was in the land of nod
Dreaming about nothing at all
And certainly not her
Continue reading “Please Just Fuck Off!”
Of course I miss you, it would be stupid to think that I didn’t.
A couple of years together thrown away a puff of anger, hurt feelings and faux outrage.
Because we are both proud people and although we were both in the wrong, our pride doesn’t allow us to apologise and climb down from our moral high ground very easily.
I know that I upset you, you know that you upset me, but is worth throwing away a bright future for the sake of some relatively petty issues?
So why are we allowing this to continue to fester and the distance between us to grow?
I’ve already said sorry. I don’t think I can do anything more.
How many apologies does it take? Continue reading “Wolf – Last Christmas?”
I’m sure like me, you have many songs that take you back to people and places in your life, happy times, sad times, the best and worst of times. Moments that we treasure and wish that we could live again and moments that we wish we could forget.
Sometimes, years after the event, we are getting on with our day, the radio on in the background and a song comes on that reminds us of happy times, it makes us feel good and we smile at the memories that come flooding back.
Sometimes, it’s the opposite, a song that reminds us of sad times. That takes our breath away and puts a tear in our eyes. Continue reading “A Prayer For The Living? #Oasis”
I’ve got a love that I cling on to
And I’ll stay there til the end
Just you laugh
Cos you’re loaded
Things look different from there
My favourite Deacon Blue song, happy memories of growing up in Glasgow in the 80s.
Christmas 1988 and I listened to that album RainTown on repeat sitting in my flat on my own while a few miles away a family party was in full swing.
Sometimes you just need to be alone. Continue reading “Glasgow Memories – RainTown”
So you’ve read the last chapter and my advice about killing someone and how it’s most likely that you will be caught.
The cops aren’t dummies you know.
You’re average plod might be, but the investigating officers will be highly trained and experienced and they will have seen your like many times before.
They will gather evidence against you, interview you, let you go then rearrest you. They will play you, lead you on and manipulate you in any way to get a confession.
It’s not personal, it’s a process. They will follow their operational procedures when necessary but will use any means necessary to get the result they want.
They have specialists and a huge amount of resources to ensure that you are caught and imprisoned for the rest of your sad sorry life.
It’s hard to beat the system and let’s be honest, you’re not that smart.
And you still want to do it?
You must’ve been seriously wronged or you have one twisted mindset mister / sister.
I’ve been there, a long time ago, someone wronged me badly in a personal attack. They also stole a significant amount of money from me and naturally I wanted instant and gratuitous vengeance. Continue reading “Wolf – 9 – Patience”
Did you know that all wisdom is contained in the Godfather?
That it has rules for life that can be applied to almost any situation.
Friends close, enemies closer?
Not letting your emotions affect your judgement?
She was gone.
After four weeks of hibernation, I eventually told my friends and family. I was hurt, broken-hearted and strangely even felt ashamed although I’d done nothing wrong.
I’d had one week of shock, then two weeks of sleepless nights full of vengeful thoughts and what-ifs.
The final week was acceptance, realising that life has to go on, letting go of the most hurtful aspects, resurfacing and moving on .. or at least trying to.
My emotions were almost a classic case of the Kubler-Ross model of dealing with grief and mostly fitted the standard grieving process for losing a partner.
Continue reading “Wolf – 3 -Letting Go?”
Its funny how sometimes you write things that are not very well read ..
( Some might say not very well written .. Ed! )
Shut-up Ed .. who asked you anyway?! 🙂
The point being that I write just whatever I feel, family, football, friends, random thoughts.
Music is a big part of my life, one of my most read pages is about the song Over The Rainbow and why I think that it has such an emotional impact on people.
Definitely one of my 3 funeral songs.
Originally blog with musical analysis below
Why Does Over The Rainbow Make Me Cry?
But decided to record and add my version to soundcloud, link below.
Sing with me ..
Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
There’s a land that I heard of once, once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true
Someday I’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow. Why, oh why? can’t I?
If happy little bluebirds fly
Above the rainbow why, oh, why can’t I?