Glasgow Memories – RainTown

I’ve got a love that I cling on to
And I’ll stay there til the end
Just you laugh
Cos you’re loaded
Things look different from there

My favourite Deacon Blue song,  happy memories of growing up in Glasgow in the 80s.

Christmas 1988 and I listened to that album RainTown on repeat sitting in my flat on my own while a few miles away a family party was in full swing.

Sometimes you just need to be alone.  Continue reading “Glasgow Memories – RainTown”

Wolf – 9 – Patience

 


So you’ve read the last chapter and my advice about killing someone and how it’s most likely that you will be caught.

The cops aren’t dummies you know.

You’re average plod might be, but the investigating officers will be highly trained and experienced and they will have seen your like many times before.

They will gather evidence against you, interview you, let you go then rearrest you.  They will play you, lead you on and manipulate you in any way to get a confession.

It’s not personal,  it’s a process. They will follow their operational procedures when necessary but will use any means necessary to get the result they want.

They have specialists and a huge amount of resources to ensure that you are caught and imprisoned for the rest of your sad sorry life.

It’s hard to beat the system and let’s be honest,  you’re not that smart.

And you still want to do it?

Really?

You must’ve been seriously wronged or you have one twisted mindset mister / sister.

I’ve been there, a long time ago, someone wronged me badly in a personal attack. They also stole a significant amount of money from me and naturally I wanted instant and gratuitous vengeance.  Continue reading “Wolf – 9 – Patience”

Wolf – 3 -Letting Go?

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Did you know that all wisdom is contained in the Godfather?

That it has rules for life that can be applied to almost any situation.

Friends close, enemies closer?

Not letting your emotions affect your judgement?

She was gone.

After four weeks of hibernation, I eventually told my friends and family. I was hurt, broken-hearted and strangely even felt ashamed although I’d done nothing wrong.

I’d had one week of shock, then two weeks of sleepless nights full of vengeful thoughts and what-ifs.

The final week was acceptance, realising that life has to go on, letting go of the most hurtful aspects, resurfacing and moving on .. or at least trying to.

My emotions were almost a classic case of the Kubler-Ross model of dealing with grief and mostly fitted the standard grieving process for losing a partner.

Continue reading “Wolf – 3 -Letting Go?”

Why does “Over The Rainbow” make me cry too?

Its funny how sometimes you write things that are not very well read ..

( Some might say not very well written .. Ed! )

Shut-up Ed .. who asked you anyway?!  🙂

The point being that I write just whatever I feel,  family,  football,  friends,  random thoughts.

Music is a big part of my life,  one of my most read pages is about the song Over The Rainbow and why I think that it has such an emotional impact on people.

Definitely one of my 3 funeral songs.

Originally blog with musical analysis below

Why Does Over The Rainbow Make Me Cry?

But decided to record and add my version to soundcloud,  link below.

Sing with me ..

Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
There’s a land that I heard of once,  once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true

Someday I’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow. Why, oh why? can’t I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Above the rainbow why, oh, why can’t I?

 

Nothing Compares 2 #Prince

Shocked by the sudden death of Prince the other day.

I’m a big fan,  he was fantastic at The Glasgow Hydro in 2014 and I had been hoping to see his Guitar and Piano gig at the Royal Concert Hall before it was cancelled citing issues with ticket touts.

Anyway,  heres my tribute,  a combination of Purple Rain and Nothing Compares 2 U,  which he also wrote although made famous by Sinead O’Conner.

An 8 bar intro,  two loops of G, Em7, Dmsus4, Cadd9 then a verse and chorus of Purple Rain followed by Nothing Compares 2 U.

The chord progressions on both these tunes are quite similar ..  F, C/E, Dm7, Gm/C .. in that they are both descending progressions,  starting with a major, passing through minor and ending in a flattened chord.

The man may have passed but his music lives on.

It’s been seven hours and 15 days ..

Easter Parade?

A line of traffic comes to a standstill
For the love came out in the morning air
I find the place I started from
The wind is calling
This time I’ll follow
Easter Parade?

I know you 
Birthday cards and silent music
Paperbacks and Sunday clothes. 

Easter Parade – The Blue Nile

I first heard that song in the mid 80s,  I bought the album off the back of their fantastic uplifting danceable single Tinseltown Is In The Rain and immediately felt cheated as I found the album pretentious. 

But Easter Parade is still a fantastically haunting song,  it’s off key piano melody and the desperation of the vocal grates in a sad poignant way. 

I heard it this morning for the first time in years,  Apple Music playing in random and it’s still as haunting now as 30 years ago. 

Somehow it struck a chord. 

Been a strange week,  a family funeral and my birthday,  a strange combination of being pleased to see everyone even although the circumstances weren’t the best. 

I’m sure you’ve been there. 

Golden Slumbers and I will sing a Lullaby

Can you imagine losing your brother,  or sister?

It’s tragic when it happens from some terrible accident,  but theres something worse when its a dehabilitating disease and you’ve watched them suffer and fade for years,   going though all the medical procedures to increase their life span whilst simultaneously reducing their quality of life in the process.

Can you imagine that this terrible disease is genetic and its already killed two or three of your siblings?

How would you feel?

Imagining that you could be next,  that even if you manage to miss it then it might affect your own children.

Cancer is an evil, relentless disease that can affect us all,  but affects some families more than others.

Today,  I’m at a family funeral,  my brothers wife’s sister.   With two sisters already taken,  I cannot imagine how she is feeling.

I can only imagine myself in her place and empathise.

I can’t imagine what it must be like to watch one of my 4 brothers to suffer and die in such circumstances.

I’m the eldest of 5 sons,  we love, we fight, we are there for each other.  All different but with a common bond,  I can’t imagine life without any one of them,  the gap left behind would be immense.

Today,  I’ll pray for Sarah, for her loss.

But I”ll pray for Liz and her children,  my god-daughter more.

I’ll pray for anyone out there suffering from this awful disease and thank God that my own family has avoided it.

If you happen to read this, maybe you could say a silent prayer too.

If you and yours are cancer free then count your blessings.

Pray for the living.

“And in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make”