Wolf – Preface

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A tale of lust,  love and revenge.

A loose follow on to a few of the characters from The Platform Lovers.

Charles is the obvious bad guy,  serial shagger,  now caught and ejected from the family home,   but it has brought him a new found freedom.

But there are other characters who hold darker secrets.

I’ve never written anything really dark and I intend to with this.   You see I don’t always believe that the good guy wins .. that’s not how things work in real life.

Here’s the thing,  I can’t easily get my head around writing about revenge or murder,   it means putting your head in that place,  it’s not how I think.

But we all have a dark side .. right?

That little fascist conniving part of us who would exercise our right to correct any wrongs that have been done against us .. as long as there aren’t any consequences.

If someone seriously wronged you .. and you could kill them without any consequences.

Would you?

How serious would that wrong have to be?

  • Theft?
  • Assault?
  • Rape?
  • Child abuse?
  • The murder a family member?

I think that most people would say that if someone hurt their family,  then they would want to kill them .. but at which point does your NO.. become a YES?

 

Wolf – 3 -Letting Go?

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Did you know that all wisdom is contained in the Godfather?

That it has rules for life that can be applied to almost any situation.

Friends close, enemies closer?

Not letting your emotions affect your judgement?

She was gone.

After four weeks of hibernation, I eventually told my friends and family. I was hurt, broken-hearted and strangely even felt ashamed although I’d done nothing wrong.

I’d had one week of shock, then two weeks of sleepless nights full of vengeful thoughts and what-ifs.

The final week was acceptance, realising that life has to go on, letting go of the most hurtful aspects, resurfacing and moving on .. or at least trying to.

My emotions were almost a classic case of the Kubler-Ross model of dealing with grief and mostly fitted the standard grieving process for losing a partner.

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Wolf – 2 – Hurt

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Young love,   It makes you do crazy things.

Like marry your first girlfriend?

Yes, we were probably married too young,  but that doesn’t excuse her behaviour.

What happened?

She cheated on me obviously.

How long had you been together?

We met aged 18,  she wasn’t the first girl I’d kissed but she was the first girl I had sex with.

Why did you get married?

Because we were stupid,  full of the joys of youth and madly in lust with each other.

But that’s not a reason to get married so young?

Yes I know,  I just couldn’t believe that I’d met a girl as gorgeous as her who wanted to be with me.   I didn’t think that I’d meet any one better and after a few months we moved in together then after a year we made it official.

Were you happy?

Actually,  I was.    But my parents weren’t.   My dad had a quiet word with me and said I should be setting up on my own and playing the field for a while before settling down.

Do you think that you should have listened to him?

Obviously,  but that’s easy in hindsight,  at the time we couldn’t keep our hands off each other.

When did it start to go wrong?

It didn’t,  or if it did,  I wasn’t aware that it was.     That’s the thing,  you can’t read other people’s minds,  they can be deceitful and you never know until it’s too late.

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Wolf – 1 – Free!

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It was just sex!

No really I swear to you, it meant absolutely nothing.

Well maybe a bit of ego scratching on my part but it was all just a bit of fun and I never meant to hurt anybody.

Yes I know I was married at the time, but you know all about that, I was frustrated and felt neglected, she was always tired and spent more time with the kids than me.

Because sex never happened, or when it did it was dull and functional rather than exciting.

So I took my desires elsewhere.

I honestly didn’t mean to hurt anyone or break up the marriage.

The videos?

They were just souvenirs, harmless bits of fun, for a bit of solo ego-scratching at a future date .. no harm done, it wasn’t as if I was going to broadcast them.

Yes I was wrong to take them secretly, well most of them, some of the girls were quite happy to perform in front of camera. Take Susie for example, she loves it, in fact she has copies of her own.

Moira?

Of course Moira doesn’t know … what you don’t know doesn’t hurt you .. right?

I mean what’s the point in raking up old news now?

I’ve already said that I was wrong .. I accept that, I’ve already apologised, I don’t know why people are still making such a big fuss about it.

It wasn’t as if anyone was actually hurt.

Was it?

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When Love Runs Dry? – Tempted?

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6 inches and a million miles between them.

You can almost taste the venom in her stare.

So what happened?

Did he call it off or her?

A public embarrassment at this function perhaps?

Whatever has happened, She hates him.

But is it because she has had enough of the relationship or because of what he’s done?

He looks as if he has stated his case and got it off his chest, possibly apologised. But is now resigned to his fate as she has made her decision.

I like it because it’s typical Jack glamour with a twist.

We’ve all been there. 🙂

When Love Runs Dry – A painting by Jack Vettriano,  I’m a big fan,  he once laughingly called me a “Dirty Bastard” of which I”m proud!

That story is on here somewhere.

Tonight Squeeze play The Glasgow Royal Concert Hall.

I’m looking forward to all their classics,  particularly Tempted originally sang with Paul Carrack.

Maybe the pic inspired the lyric.

Tempted by the fruit of another
Tempted but the truth is discovered!